Someone who is not in my life, its just an expectations......


People say that there is always a life partner send with you on this earth with your birth… But it matters how and where to find that partner…. But one expects certain quality which his/her partner should have… Today I was also made to think over this and decide what I think and what does I expect the qualities in my partner…. After a long long thinking over many hours I just made out what my heart and my mind expect from that partner…..


To tell them in words is very difficult but as I was asked I am going to just try what to depict in my own words what I really expect from her….


How to start with????????????? Really hard…………


But let me begin…… the first and the foremost quality she should have in her is that she should understand me…. She should understand my feelings and the mental state without my speaking through which I am going through….. She should be able to judge what I am hoping for and expecting from my life…


She should understand me and my friendship…. She should be more of a friend to me… She should care even for my friends and treat them as if they are her own friend… She should never tell me to get apart from a friend which is the most worst thing I would ever feel and it could be the end of our relations… She should not stop me to do any deed for my friends even if it is going to affect me in anegative sense and benefit my friend… Friendship for me was the greatest relation, it is a greatest relation for me and it will be the greatest relation for me… and I don’t want she should come between this bond of mine… more to tell now she should be intelligent a bit, if not then also she will become in my company(just kidding). I don’t expect a gorgeous or good looking girl I just expect a good and gorgeous hearted girl with a clean soul who never wants bad for anyone… one more major point she should be not over concerned for me who keeps on telling me to take care of myself….


To this I will also add she should understand that if I m busy somewhere she should not be needing an explaination.. she should not be ringing every five minutes…..


If I pay more times to my friends she should not be jealous but she should be happy for this…


These are all the things which I think my partner should have…. Oh!!!!! One more important point she should be able to cope with my anger and short tempered nature which my friends always face….


If I expect these things I think she will also have some expectations… I can just try to care for her but I donot promise that I will be always be able to…. I can just try to read her mind but its not possible that I will be able to do it everytime… I can just promise that I can be avery good friend to her whom whenever she will need, will be near to her and if not possible will be there to render help in the all possible ways which I can… I can just try to solve her all problems and give her all the support which I can give her but I do fail with my friends and its possible that I won’t be able to help her… But I can just try for all the things but not at the cost of loosing my identity… the last thing is possessiveness… I don’t want her or myself to be possessive at all about each other. If we have trust on each other this possessiveness should not come into play… so I need a friend I think who can be my partner..


These are the list of qualities I expect which is really hard to get and I don’t think I will be able to get someone who can tolerate me or in simple words-“BAHUT MUSHKIL HAI JO MUJHE JHEL SAKE.”